My head's cleared up

I think it is, at least. Most of my tears are gone so, I won't be crying anytime soon. I think my head is cleared up. But, I've lost my trust in my parents. It's sad, but true. I'll keep loving them but the closeness I have with them is gone. Experienced that this morning; I didn't even look at my mom. I'm sure something-- no matter how small it might be-- good will come out of this. ...Right? I'm trying to be as positive as I can be. But I'm scared to death of what the future holds. I'm scared to death of what I'm capable of becoming due to my parents' decisions(and I saw that last night). So, I'm asking for prayer. For those who will pray for me, thank you.

Stefani B.

I don't understand anymore... [/a vent]

I really don't understand life anymore. I don't understand how you can wake up one day and life can be peachy and the next day it's hell on earth! I don't understand. Both of my parents are drinking now. It doesn't make sense! And it's funny(not really) how they expect me to not notice their crap. And they expect me not to care! And they expect me not to understand what they're doing! But, I do! And it hurts! I just want to wake up one day and it be paradise or whatever. I just want one day for all the bad things to go away. They're like monsters. And thank God that I don't care for suicide. Because if I did, I would be hanging by now! The only thing I long for is... aloneness.

Stefani B.